2004 wrapup

2004 has been an amazing year. I can't even imagine a year so full of suprises and blessings to come. I dont know why i allow myself to expect the worst- it seems that rarely ever is the truth. This last year has been beautiful beyond any of my own expectations, and yet here at the start of another- I really do have these nagging suspicions that it is all going to end- that I am not doing as much good as I hope, that I really need to rely on myself to get the important stuff done. When will I stop being so stiff-necked and rely on God? When will I trust that God is in control and I dont have to pretend to be? In so many ways, I doubt that God either will or can take care of my life, my work, my heart. But if anything is true, it is that everytime I pick up the reins and try to steer the ship- we run aground. My NewYears Resolution- my NewLife Resolution is to let go. To give God what is God's - everything. Can i do it? Can I trust a God who has given me everything? Can i leave my own life at his feet and trust him to protect me- to lead me- to love me like He has promised? Let's hope so.